Daniel
lifted his glass and clinked it with Kathleen's. "To the kids,
may they not repeat all their parent's mistakes."
"Just
the really good ones," Kathleen amended, a big grin on her face.
Daniel
returned the grin. He took her hand and asked, "We were a good
mistake, weren't we, Kathleen?"
Kathleen
squeezed his hand for a moment and then withdrew hers. "I don't
think of you as a mistake."
"You
love John?"
"I
married him," she replied, eyes downcast.
"So
you're happy with him. Of course you are. Why wouldn't you be?
A successful doctor, a good provider, can give you a trip like
this. So have you taken up golf yet? Don't most doctors wives
play golf?" His tone was bitter.
"I'm
not going to explain or justify my marriage to you. It would have
been a lot different if you hadn't..." Kathleen stopped in mid
sentence.
"I
don't think so. I don't think it would have been any different.
Only took you a week or so to get over me." Daniel swallowed his
wine in a gulp and poured more. His hands were shaking.
Kathleen
slammed her glass on the table. "I was a basket case when you
left. I didn't know I could cry that much. I didn't eat, or sleep.
John was there for me."
"And
I wasn't." Daniel's face crumpled.
She
looked at him, eyes glinting with anger. "That's right, not a
letter, not a phone call. Even if you didn't want to be my lover
you could have been a friend. John was my friend and...well...I
took advantage of his friendship and slept with him. I was so
lonely for you and I needed...needed to be touched, to be held.
I felt dead inside."
"Stop,
Kathleen." Daniel stood up and threw some money on the table.
"Same
old Danny, run away."
Daniel's
face was a mask of pain, but he sat down. "It was better that
I left. Sooner or later you would have left me, left Leo, moved
on. And you did, right into the arms of Mr. All American, with
a nice bank account."
Kathleen
looked at him in utter amazement. "God, you haven't learned anything
at all. I married him because I was pregnant. He stood by me,
loved me. He didn't run away when things got rough."
She
stood up and started to walk away. Daniel grabbed her arm to stop
her. She looked at his hand on her arm until he removed it. "Now
who's running?"
"Danny,
I've spent the last four years missing you. How can you possibly
imagine that I would have ever left you? That I ever got over
you? I loved Leo like he was my own. I wanted us to be a family.
You were never a failure in my eyes. Never. Until you ran away."
She swiped her eyes and stared at him. "You have absolutely no
idea how much I loved you."
Daniel
grabbed her arm again. Her face was tear streaked and she needed
to blow her nose. He held her upper arms tightly and pulled her
to him. "I never got to kiss the bride," he said sadly. He touched
her lips with his, gently. He felt her try to push him away for
a second. Then she whimpered softly and kissed him back. He was
in freefall, the kiss intensifying. Kissing her was better than
he remembered. Her lips were soft and yielding under his. He was
a goner. Then the world came back and he realized where they were.
This was not his Kathleen; this was someone's wife. He broke the
kiss and let her go. She stood there gasping for a moment and
then slapped him hard. With that she picked up her bag and stalked
off.