Mollie wanted
her kids home, not out there somewhere with who-knew-whom, maybe
scared, hurt or.... Stop it, there's no use borrowing trouble.
They'll be all right. I have to believe they'll be all right.
"You ought to
go to bed," Wade said, breaking in to her self-chiding thoughts.
"I wouldn't be able to sleep no matter what."
"I won't be able
to sleep either," Mollie replied. "How could I sleep when
I don't know where my kids are, whether they may be hurt or hungry?
Santa Madre, what kind of
a mother do you think I am?"
Perhaps he heard
the anger and pain in her voice, but his reply caught her off
guard. "A very good and concerned mother, but one who needs
to keep her strength up and take care of herself, too. Sometimes
it's selfish not to be a little selfish, if you know what I mean."
His gentle words
were too much. The tears she'd fought to hold at bay suddenly
welled up. This time she could not blink them away. She fisted
her hands, grasping the edge of the tablecloth as the surge of
unleashed emotion threatened to sweep her away.
In a breath he
was on his feet and around the table. When he caught her by the
shoulders and half-lifted her out of the chair, she could not
resist. Turning into his arms, she burrowed her face in the crisp
fabric of his shirt, surrendering to the wracking sobs.
Although Wade
normally hated feminine tears, relief swept him when he saw the
first drops begin to leak from Mollie's eyes. She's finally
going to let go a little. Thank God.
He just acted,
rising to go to her, bodily lifting her from her seat and into
his arms. No one should have to cry that way alone. The silent
wracking sobs seemed to tear from the depths of Mollie's soul.
She did not resist but melted against him, burying her face in
the hollow of his shoulder. His shirt was soon wet with her tears,
but he didn't mind. He stroked her back in long gentle sweeps,
murmuring senseless words as if he were soothing a frightened
child or an injured animal.
He didn't know
how long they stood there together before her sobs subsided into
hiccupping sniffles and finally to shuddering breaths. He felt
the stiffening of her body an instant before she lifted her head.
"Aye de mi.
Why did you let me go on that way?" She sniffed as she pulled
back, as far as he'd let her. Lifting one hand from his
arm where she'd crumpled a handful of shirt sleeve, she scrubbed
at her eyes. "I've soaked your shirt and gotten it all wrinkled."
"You needed to,"
he said simply. "I was worried because you were too controlled,
too calm, holding it all in. You needed to get some of the feelings
out, release some of that growing pressure. Why shouldn't I let
you?"
They were still
close. He circled her waist with one arm, the other hand resting
on her shoulder. Her face was just inches away, and in spite of
the signs of weeping, she still looked beautiful. Long inky lashes
were clumped into star-points while lingering moisture gave her
dark eyes a peculiar luster. Her lips still quivered slightly.
Warm, full lips that drew first his gaze and then his lips with
a magnetic pull.
There was nothing
hesitant or cautious about this kiss. It might have been as much
a reaction as Mollie's tears had been, but he sensed neither of
them was going to resist. From leaning away as if to break free,
she went in a heartbeat to flowing against him. She clasped both
arms around him, arched into his body and stretched upward into
his kiss, her lips as eager and active as his were. They kissed
with a blind urgency, voracious driving need, as if there was
no one save the two of them in the entire world.
Rationality returned
like a wash of ice water. What in God's name are we doing?
Wade raised his head, gently
holding Mollie back from reaching to continue the kiss with one
hand woven into her hair at the back of her neck. She gave a slight
mew, like a hungry kitten, just before her eyes flew open.