She couldn't move. Rooted in the bed, every part of her body weighed
a million pounds. No matter how hard she concentrated, her eyelids
refused to open. Held like a virtual prisoner, she was forced to
relive this afternoon's humiliation. And it had been humiliating.
Every time at bat, she struck out. In the outfield, she missed the
ball. Jacko had laughed and laughed until his ugly face turned blue.
Now, in the dream, he grew in size and strength until he seemed
to fill the sky.
"You cannot escape, Selena. I will get what I want until there
is nothing left of you. Do you hear me? Until there is nothing left
of you!"
Savannah couldn't help but hear. His voice roared through her ears,
blasting down into her soul. Her heart positively quaked. And still
she was powerless to move--to wake up. He'd called her Selena, but
he was talking to her. Now came the familiar part of the
dream. The helplessness...the panic...the spreading horror that
something unspeakable was about to happen. Maybe once a month, she'd
have this nightmare. She'd wake up frozen with fear. But it had
never been this vivid. Never this...close.
She had to get away. If only she could scream to call Mom
and Dad. Or Grandma. Anybody! If only she could break free from
this...this spell.
Wishing must've made it so, for suddenly Savannah was able to open
her eyes. For a second she took stock of her surroundings. Still
the same worn flowered wallpaper covering the guest bedroom walls;
still the same cracked pitcher and bowl on the bureau waiting for
someone to wash hands; still the same sweet picture of baby Jesus
in his mother's lap, hanging over the cedar hope chest. Nothing
had moved. Nothing had changed.
Except Savannah could have sworn she'd been someplace else. The
urgent need to flee remained, however. Not caring she was barefoot,
she jumped out of bed and, avoiding the creakier floorboards, left
her room and opened the front screen door. She made her escape out
into the starry night. Not looking back, she ran. Fast, faster,
fastest. Away. Away. Had to get away.
The hot, humid air clung to her, trying to slow her down. Mosquitoes
buzzed around her, glad for the chance to have a midnight snack.
A symphony of sounds enveloped her--country noises. Humming, moaning,
hissing. The singing cicadas were the worse. Some kind of bug, Dad
had said. But Savannah kept going, disregarding the rocks, twigs,
and slimy feel of muddy ooze beneath her feet.
"Ouch." In the dark, she missed the sharp, jagged stone in front
of her. Falling on hands and knees, she cradled her wounded left
leg in her arms. Blood seeped out from a two-inch gash while tears
flowed freely from her eyes. A fine mess she'd made of things. How
could she explain her muddied, bloodied babydoll pj's to Mom?
"What am I gonna do?" she sobbed softly.
A light bounced across the vacant lot next to Grandma's. The flashlight's
beam zigzagged across the field, looking for someone, looking for
her. More sooner than later it would find its mark. "Who's there?"
a harsh voice whispered.
Savannah turned to stone. How could she have forgotten? The boys
had constructed a tent house made of blankets and were all sleeping
outside tonight. What if...what if she ran into Jacko?
The light exposed her crumpled form, coldly illuminating the mishap.
"Savannah! What happened? Why are you out this late?"
It was Tommy, in frayed jean shorts and a white undershirt. His
dark hair, indistinguishable from the night, ruffled up in an endearing
way. He was, in a word, gorgeous.
She stopped sniveling to wipe the tears on her puffed up sleeve.
If only she were thirteen.
"Savannah? You okay, kitten?" He bent down and examined her injury.
"I, um, I had a bad dream, that's all."
Tommy held her lower leg and scraped off some dirt and grass. Peculiar
shivers vibrated up and down Savannah's insides. She felt so weird.
Not bad, but not good...exactly. She stared at him, not knowing
what else to do.
But she did have a question. "Why do you call me 'kitten'?"
He grinned. "'Cause you're so small and helpless." To her embarrassment,
he got really close to her leg--peering at it from only an inch
away.
"There, all the foreign stuff's out. We'll have t'wash it, though,
or it'll get infected. Your granny's got a pump out back, right?"
Grandma's water pump was a throw-back to the old days. She even
had an outhouse, but thankfully, that was no longer in use. Imagine
sitting on a hole--
"C'mon." Tommy helped her up. "Your ma's probably missing you."
"Thanks, Tommy. I--"
He put his finger to her lips. "Shh. Jacko's sleeping right over
there. We don't want t'wake him, do we?"
She trembled. "No."
Tommy curved his arm around her and walked her over to Grandma's
backyard. She'd never felt so...safe and protected in all her life.
"I didn't think so, Savannah. I bet anything he's the one who gave
you the nightmare in the first place."
Never fond of her own name, she drank it in when Tommy used it.
A giggle bubbled up and refused to be held back. "You're right!
How'd you guess?"
"Hey, he gives me nightmares, too!" Tommy primed the hand pump
a few times, and then water began to flow. "Here, stick your leg
in."
The sensation of him running his hand up and down her lower leg
in no way could compare with Mom's touch...or Dad's. For some reason,
Savannah wanted to jump out of her skin from the sheer pleasure
of it.
"Okay, it's clean." He glanced at her dirty pajamas, then down
at his undershirt. Without saying a word, he whipped the shirt off
and started drying her leg.
The only time Savannah had seen the unclothed upper part of a boy
was at the beach back home, or at the pool near Grandma's house.
To be truthful, she'd never really paid much attention. But Tommy's
body. Well, he was beautiful.
Something unusual coursed through her veins. Something that hadn't
been there before. Something grown-up.
"You...you should be a doctor," she offered timidly.
"Me? Nah. I'll be lucky if I graduate high school." He handed her
the shirt. "Keep this in case it bleeds some more--so you don't
dirty your granny's sheets."
Their hands met and he looked at her, eye to eye. She wanted that
moment to last forever.
"Er, you'd best get back t'bed, Savannah. And no more bad dreams."
He couldn't go! Not just yet. "I, um, I'll get your shirt washed
and give it back to you, Tommy."
"Nah, throw it away." He turned and headed toward the blanket house.
"See you tomorrow, kitten."
It sounded like a promise. Hugging the shirt to her chest, Savannah
skipped back into her bedroom. Slipping under the cotton bedsheet,
she sank into the mattress and sighed. It really was a miracle that
everyone still slept.
Tomorrow. She was going to see him tomorrow.
As it turned out, Savannah never saw Tommy again. Until...